OF SOUL & SPIRIT SUNDAYS- FORGIVENESS OF YOURSELF IS KEY

So of course with today being Sunday- I had to reflect over my past week and how I allowed it to affect my soul and spirit and what actions if any were a reflection of Christ and what actions were not and of course like any human I teetered from side to side. But as Christians in God's eyes that's not acceptable. I have spent the past month and a half fasting and focusing on becoming a version of myself. Only to receive the test of self-discipline and although saddened I'm not ashamed to admit that I failed. I allowed my test of anger to push my limits and although I didn't lash out- I still felt a strong rush of emotion to and that is an issue that I deal with daily. I am not ashamed to admit it because I am work in progress and acknowledge where I USED to be and that I am no longer there. I ask that when then life is over God- accepts my works and forgives my ways

We at times will say that "so and so made me upset or they made me this way- but really evaluate that sentence. Who really made you in the first place....GOD...so if man did not make you- then man can not MAKE YOU- shake you or even break you for that matter. So forgive them forgive yourself and move on

I found myself upset at some important people in my life this week but even moreso upset with myself because I allowed their actions or lack there of to take me back to a place that I worked so hard to remove myself from. But I have always prided myself on my inability to become knocked down and stay down- a word I use often called RESILIENCY...and because I possess this- I chose to become a victim of Romans 3:23 which states "for all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God" but in that same breath I also find victory to rise above and to acknowledge when I have fallen and pick myself up with the hands of my Father and move forward. So I'm deciding today to forgive them forgive myself and move on

By far this week was the hardest for me of 2011 and its only March- but as I look back over my life and I think things over- ALL OF MY GOOD DAYS- outweigh my BAD DAYS- and how I could COMPLAIN-*cue Sis.Henry on the organ*..... but I won't because at the end of the day and the beginning of the day when I awaken with breath in my body and movement of my soul and spirit- GOD HAS STILL BEEN TOO GOOD TO ME- so I will forgive them- forgive myself and move on

So like everything else- I will overcome and after talks with trusted loved ones- I learned some valuable life lessons this week.

1. I'M NOT WHERE I WANNA BE BUT I'M ON THE PATH TO WHERE I'M GONNA BE
2. IF THINGS ARE ALWAYS GOING MY WAY THEN THEY CAN'T BE GOING GOD'S WAY
3.FORGIVE THEM FORGIVE MYSELF AND MOVE ON

Meaning God places situations in our lives to prepare us for spiritual warfare and if you aren't experiencing that you aren't experiencing Christ and therefore you are living a life that is not your own selfishly and destructively. But in the God we serve there is forgiveness and the power of healing of all hurt and this week I learned that there are still things that I need to heal from and that cannot be healed from alone.

So I thank God for another opportunity to make things right and even for technology because I was able to USTREAM the word even in my physical and mental anguish

 I dedicate today's blog to my cousin- Danielle- I love you and can't thank you enough for your work through me. I have and will forgive them forgive myself and move on and I can't thank you enough little cousin for the lessons you have taught me

Imagine me
Loving what I see when the mirror looks at me cause I
I imagine me
In a place of no insecurities
And I'm finally happy cause
I imagine me

Letting go of all of the ones who hurt me
Cause they never did deserve me
Can you imagine me?
Saying no to thoughts that try to control me
Remembering all you told me
Lord, can you imagine me?
Over what my mama said
And healed from what my daddy did
And I wanna live and not read that page again

Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally finally I can...
Imagine me
I admit it was hard to see
You being in love with someone like me
But finally I can...
Imagine meSigned YOURS in Soul and Spirit Christ,

Domo "Please be patient with me- HE'S not thru with me yet" DeVeReaux

Pass me not, O gentle Savior,
Hear my humble cry;
While on others Thou art calling,
Do not pass me by. Refrain:
Savior, Savior,
Hear my humble cry,
While on others Thou are calling,
Do not pass me by.

Let me at a throne of mercy
Find a sweet relief;
Kneeling there in deep contrition,
Help my unbelief.